“The battle is the Lord’s.” 1 Samuel 17:47
Never, ever, had I gone to bed and woken up in such a terrible state. As I trembled, swirled around my bed, something horrifying was happening. I was dreaming. Something I rarely do, but when I do, I tend to remember every single act in it. My dream was full of violence, blood, sobbing, and a scene of fierce struggle between family members. As much as I fought with myself to wake up, I wasn’t able to. My step father physically abused my sisters, hitting them, locking them up, and even got to the point of stabbing one of them, meanwhile outside of the dream my eyes were tearing up. I was shaking unconsciously and began to sob in the real world. As my sisters escaped that house where we were held hostage by our stepfather, I began to open my eyes and was finally able to wake up. Breathing hard, and shedding tears, I rapidly began to pray.
I don’t know why I had this horrible dream, neither can I explain how I woke up crying as if I had been living it in life now but I do know that while I was escaping that home, I wasn’t alone. This dream might sound crazy; maybe it might not even make sense to you, or to me either, but I do know I didn’t have this dream without reason.
Lately I’ve been having a battle with myself. I didn’t realize about this battle until yesterday, and then this dream happens. Last night while having dinner as I conversed with a really close friend of mine I began to realize that this battle is slowly impacting my life. Through these past months I have been renewed and filled with the Holy Spirit. Amazingly my old stone heart has been ripped out by my Lord, and replaced with a new heart.
Sometimes, like in my dream I feel like running instead of confronting my fears. I feel like finding an easy route in this daily battle. Sometimes, I may feel overwhelmed of just thinking that I can lose people I love. I know that God wants a clean person, someone who really desires to give their all, not half, but the complete person. And maybe until I decide to take action and make wise decisions while in this battle of mine, I’ll be able to wake up and feel completely free.
Sometimes we don’t realize how worldly things can really affect our spirituality. We think that because it’s a minimal thing it’ll be a short battle and won’t have much effect. Unfortunately that’s not the case. Most of the time it’s those small things that create large, long battles and end up having the biggest impact in our life. Not only that, but they come with a set of consequences, and any one of them can lead to changing lanes onto the wrong path instead of the path that’ll lead us to the great heavens.
I don’t think I’m the only one that may be confronting these daily battles. You also might be going through something similar.
God is love, and made us to perfection. He want’s the best for us and desires our prosperity in every way. On the other hand, we have Satan (evil) who never rests, the instigator of sin, the one who every day tries to fill our lives with conflicts, problems, obstacles, and what not. Don’t let that make you run away! You are not fighting this battle on your own, you are fighting with the Almighty God!. Let that conflict you might be facing right now or in the near future, be a learning lesson, one more trophy, one more battle won!
If you are going through a battle yourself, remember that God tells us in His scriptures, “The battle is the Lord’s.” 1 Samuel 17:47 don’t focus too much in trying to win the battle, God is by your side, that battle has already been won. By Him.